I’m Going to See a Victory!

Reem has been in the Sheba hospital for almost three months now. When you enter the ICU you know exactly where to find her. Same room, same bed, same beautiful, smart and strong mum and sadly same condition since a long time.

Today was a little different. I always knew that Reem is a specifically beautiful baby. Yet seeing her for the first time without this tube in her mouth was just amazing. I had only seen her like this because of the videos her mum had proudly showed to me before. Much to my regret Reem hasn’t been extubated because her condition has improved, but because the doctors decided to send her back to the hospital in Gaza. Therefore she needs a tracheostomy tube which she got yesterday. It helps her to breath.

When Moshe and I stepped nearer to Reem‘s bed, he realized that the beautiful girl was constantly rolling her eyes back. It was so sad to see that her eyes were opened and yet she wasn’t able to look. I bent over, called her name a few times and fondled her hair so she tried to turn her head and focused on my face for a few seconds before fading back into her own world. Her mum showed us that her whole body was in some sort of numbness. It was almost impossible to move Reem‘s tiny legs and arms.

Because of the jelly in Reem‘s hair we figured out that the nurses had done an ultrasound. The result was that the fluid within her brain (hydrocephalus) had increased a little bit. While I was standing next to Reem‘s bed I realized that I didn’t know how to pray for her anymore. I just couldn’t find the right words. The stuffed animals on the end of her bed caught my eyes and I heard her mum’s voice in my head: “She has many toys but she doesn’t play with them.”

I know that God is faithful, even if I don’t understand. I know that he is in control, even if I’m not. I know that however Reem’s story will end: God has won the victory!

“There’s power in the mighty name of Jesus
Every war he wages He will win
I’m not backing down from any giant
‘Cause, I know how this story ends
Yes, I know how this story ends
I’m gonna see a victory
For the battle belongs to you Lord”

I promised Reem’s mum to not publish any pictures of her daughter anymore. That’s why this blog doesn’t have one.