Trusting God even in death

When I entered Hospital’s Pediatric ICU today, the doctor told me that Adam is crashing and has a lot of failures, and were anticipating his passing. There was nothing more they could do for him.

So, I entered the room and met Adam’s aunt standing next to him. She knew it was going to an end with him. I hugged her and made the last picture of Adam alive.

Due to a discharge of another child, we were pretty long in the hospital. I can just describe it as God’s timing, because we entered the ICU without knowing directly after Adam died. I first saw a wall in front of his room and then Adam’s aunt coming to me, and crying into my arms.

She was so strong all the time for the precious child of her sister-in-law and in this moment, I could just see that she really loved this child. It was a lot to carry, the surgery, a resuscitation, ups and downs, but especially to tell Adam’s parents that their child died.

Today in the morning meeting of our community we read 2 Corinthians 4 and talked about trusting God even in hard times. I didn’t expect that we would see this so soon again. On our way back home from the hospital, coworker Frank and I talked a lot and heard the song, “You never let go.”

And as it is written in Psalm 23,4:

“Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.”

I wish and pray so much for Adam’s aunt and especially also for his parents, that this death and valley will reveal to them God’s love and that he will ever be with them, in every dark time. He holds Adam and the family in his loving arms. In all this, he doesn’t let us go. As we heard it this morning, this is the only hope we have in this world and even for eternity.

We waited together with Adam’s aunt until the ambulance came, to bring her and Adam’s body back to Gaza. I could watch how the other grandmothers and mothers with whom she had a pretty close relationship, hugged her and just felt with her.

All we can do for the family now is to pray for them. And let’s do that. Let’s pray that they may experience the comfort God offers them and that Adam’s death will translate into something good in their lives. Thank you for all your prayer and sympathy.